Yossy and The Blah

:')

2011-04-20T05:01:00.000-07:00

Groar.

2011-04-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

On 11 March 2011, a nuclear power plant in Japan named Fukushima Daiichi experiences a series of ongoing equipment failures and releases of radioactive materials following the earthquake and tsunami recently happened in Japan.The reactor plant, the one which contains the highly radioactive particles, released the dangerous particles to the air after a hydrogen explosion.

The Fukushima disaster is seen as the second worst nuclear disaster after the Chernobyl tragedy. The reasons why many countries still use nuclear energy is because it is seen as the new hope to solve the fossil fuel depletion problem. Fossil fuel, the main fuel source we still rely on, is depleting in an alarming manner and countries believe that there is no other power source as promising as nuclear power.

However so, we believe that the risks it poses outweigh the benefits thus we will no longer use nuclear energy,as power nor as weapon. This would mean that the United Nation should not tolerate the mere presence of nuclear facility in member countries as well as gives strong warning towards nations that still possess this facilities as well as on the course of developing them, be it for power source as well as weapon.

We agree that the depletion of fuel source is important, but protecting the society at all cost is even more important. Finding the right subtitute might not be fast and become an extended struggle, however putting the society at such a tremendous risk is not a wise decision. Though other renewable power source are not very reliable at the moment, it is still better to spend more time and energy developing it rather than using nuclear power which is still not fully controllable and bears too many risks. Governments need to protect their society to the extent of eliminating possible immense dangers. No maatter how promising, if it bears a risk as extensive as annihilating a great deal of human lives as well as leaving behind non-removable side effects, the governments need to stop using the nuclear energy.

Even though nuclear power is seen as the only potential subtitute for fossil fuel, the risk of explosion is always present and once the explosion occurs, the damages are fatally dangerous, irreversible and will last for decades.

There are three major effects of a nuclear explosion: searing heat, overpressure from the blast, and radiation. The intensity of the effects depends on the yield of the weapon and the distance from the blast.

The impacts of the radiation and explosion are fatally dangerous:

Nuclear plant explosion kills people in a number of ways:

a. Instantly killing people in vicinity due to the gruesome fire to as far as hundreds of kilometre from the occurence of explosion due to the saturation of radioactivity that gets into the human body. When the Chernobyl disaster occured, the whole Europe was affected.

b. Radiation poisoning is damaging to organ and other tissues caused by excessive exposure to ionizing radiation. Radiation exposure can increase the probability of developing several diseases, mainly cancer, tumours, and genetic damage. It is greatly possible that a single meltdown in a nuclear plant will cause these damages to millions of people at once through transmission by air.

Moreover, radio active poison prevention is not possible. There is no current method available to adequately prevent exposure to radiation from being absorbed in the human body. Supplements such as kelp and potassium iodide do have a preventative effect on the thyroid, but they don’t prevent exposure to other body organs and tissues. They cannot prevent radioactive iodine from entering the body.

The radioactive waste poses the same health risk. It is costly and hard to degrade as well as difficult to be transported away. If it contaminates the water and soil, the whole food chain will be contaminated as well. Contamination causes people to consume contaminated food from the water and the earth. Long term consumption creates a build-up of radioactivity in the body which means in a long term basis having a nuclear power is dangerous to the people in the society.

They are also irreversible and long lasting:

Once a nuclear plant explodes, the resulting damages are reversible to society. Firstly, when the radioactive particles escape the reactor core and are in contact with the surrounding environment, they will stay in the soil ground, water and any physical presence within the plant’s proximity. Even years after the Chernobyl incident the surrounding environment is still detected with high contamination of radioactivity.

These fatally dangerous, irreversible and long-lasting massive destruction will always be the greatest risk when a single nuclear powerplant is built, leave alone many all over the world. Once exploded, the impacts kill and stay. This should not happen and the nuclear power’s existence needs to be erased.

2011-04-07T19:48:00.000-07:00

This letter is for you.

Hey D
I haven't been talking to you for almost a year. I can still remember clearly the last conversation we had. It was in the evening, and I told you that time that I am going to stay by your side and would never looked the other ways like I used to be. You were glad that time, and I thought that everything was gonna be okay. Yet right the day after that conversation occurred, I knew this person who, I thought, was far more interesting than you. I once told you that I would be back after I know that person better. I even promised you that I wouldn't leave you too long.

Yet that person wasn't the first one. I knew another one, then one after another, then I was even in love with them, forgetting that once my heart in fact belonged to you. I was so into them, I talked to them much more than I do to you. You were only, well, silent. You didn't say anything most of the time. Initially I told you to wait a bit more. When I was too happy with them, I told you that you shouldn't make me feel guilty. That sad face you showed me gave me a lot of sleepless nights. I too was confused. Why would I do such thing? Weren't you supposed to be the most important part of me? I once told you I love you.

sepuluh!

2011-03-22T15:43:00.001-07:00

The Devil of Procrastination

2010-12-30T18:15:00.000-08:00

So this is what happened yesterday. I had a holiday task which I found sooo overwhelming. Not due to the complexity or hugeness of it, but due to the fact that I hate the module so badly. Initially I postponed doing it for an hour, then to 2 hours, then to a few hours until soon the postponement snowballed into, hold your breath, 3 days!!!!

Yesterday I felt so flustered I decided to go for a small walk and do some sketching (Talk about chronic procrastination). Despite the fact that none was actually done from the chunk of my super-fabulous holiday task, I managed to be a little bit productive by making one sketch. The image was taken from this pasar malam spot (Night market in English) near d'Loft (its an apartment for students nearby). It is a local event held at the end of every month and it is sort of a local enjoyment here coz not only you can pick up some real bargains like very very cheap daily necessities but you can also find rides for children (I only spotted 2 though).

I admit the sketch is pretty much disorganized (please spare me some lenience will ya) but hey! It was produced out of the desperation of this poor soul yapping for a heavenly help (please please someone tell me that this isn't happening. There is no such thing as Report submission on the first day of the new college term *sniff*).

Maybe... I should go for a massage! *again?

Leaarrnnn

2010-12-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

I knew that I learn easier whenever I see diagrams, colors and pictures, and heard that in the learner category I fall into the 'visual learners' type. So I googled the phrase 'learning style quiz' and found this quiz thingy at the top of the page. The quiz is relatively easy to do and the result it gave gives you a pretty clear picture on how to utilize your potential in a specific learning technique. Check the quiz out here: http://www.educationplanner.org/education_planner/discovering_article.asp?sponsor=2859&articleName=Learning_Styles_Quiz

Sooo as expected, I am a visual learner. Now I know why my brain cells automatically switch to dormant mode every time I see plain, boring handouts and books.

2010-12-09T15:39:00.000-08:00

image taken from I Can Read

Beauty In Destruction

2010-12-09T15:22:00.000-08:00

images taken from Vigilism Sketchpad

Yellow English Learners!

2010-12-09T14:49:00.000-08:00

To gain a better share in the English-training industry, I recently ordered a pack of name cards from my childhood friend, Ruby. She told me in our primary school reunion a few months ago that she accepts orders for making designs. I grabbed the opportunity (as I was pretty impressed by the portfolio she brought) and quickly ordered her design for my name card.

I wanted a concept of relaxed-professionalism which the card can intrinsically show to the receiver that I am teaching English in the most flexible manner, meaning that I am not restricted to a certain age, gender, level of English learner, group size or even profession (like, telling them that I can basically teach any age, group size, any level of English learner---beginner to advance---or profession). A few designs came up, and tadaaah! This one was the one that I picked. Reason being, I like the usage of yellow as a representation of mood (relaxed and cheery) and (okay this is pretty minor) I like the tiny little arrow beside the words 'Speak English' ahahahaha.

Speaking of that too, 'Speak English' stands as a motto that I strongly uphold, cause to be a good English speaker people need to, well, speak English! Thus the placement of those words in my beautiful card. So peeeepol, SPEAK ENGLISH!

Super Tips For The Galau-ers

2010-12-08T15:49:00.000-08:00

Feeling galau? (meaning: disturbed and anxious)
Super tips to overcome it!

1. Grab anything non-destructive to express it
Can be anything. Paper and pencil, moulding blocks, anything. Just be sure you are not hurting yourself or doing anything damaging to yourself.

2. Walk people, walkk
Whenever I feel this way, I will just walk. As long as I want, doing and thinking about nothing. My longest durations are 4-hour walk from CitraLand Mall to Kemang and 3.5 hour walk from Binus University to Pasar Mayestik. You may risk looking like a troubled lunatic but still, this way of releasing your anxiousness is pretty much constructive rather than destructive. You get to exercise more and you are isolated from your own little world of thought for a while.

3. Write
This is another thing that I always do. I write whatever I think or feel, and it makes me feel even better when people do not have the right to judge it. This doesn't mean that I am advising you to bombard your friend's space with your drama-queenish stats every now and then, but what I mean is to find a limited media (which, essentially, not disturbing anyone's spaces and peace by your unstability) where you can express yourself a little bit more. I know that social networks and media nowadays are so prone to judgment by people and you may feel hesitant to do so due to that. Well it works for me and it may to you too, but you know. people may have different opinions. Its good to post everything positive in your public space but posting something that genuinely expresses your feeling to the very true core of it does show that you are a human being, not a positively-programmed-motivation-tv-show-host.

Cukup Cukup Ini Mengganggu Lets Get Back to Work

2010-12-08T15:29:00.000-08:00

Oke cukuuup!!!!

Berdasarkan teori gue, menjadi labil memang luar biasa menyenangkan kadang-kadang, tapi ga kalo udah ngeganggu aktivitas-aktivitas. Shoooo!!!! Get out get out get out

2010-12-08T07:14:00.000-08:00

The old wound hasn't healed yet. Then came another cut.

I Draw So I Won't Scream.

2010-12-07T11:28:00.000-08:00

The Hole

The Weeping Wound

The Look

The Scratch

Bahasa Indonesia Itu Indah :)

2010-11-25T17:43:00.000-08:00

I am currently exploring on short stories in Bahasa. I love the way Bahasa Indonesia is twisted and constructed in such a way that readers are swayed into the atmosphere and moods that are created by the writer. This current obsession is pretty much grown when a friend of mine named Heri Kurniawan (btw check his blog here) cast the idea to start delving into the vast linguistic beauty of short stories (or Cerpen, in Bahasa). I didn't buy the idea at first, as I have not tried doing so in the past and thought that short stories are not really explorable. I couldn't be more wrong!

Short stories are in fact truly challenging to make. The idea of being short is that those stories have pretty little chance to convey what is actually happening in the storyline. Different from novels or long stories, the sequences change very quickly, the transitions from scene to scene needs to be done fast, and words are the most powerful tools to explain the ideas that did not have the chance to appear from the beginning until the end of the story. In conclusion, effectiveness is the key. Each lines and phrases need to portray much more beyond what the reader can read. Each lines need to be so powerful such that they manage to pop ideas, atmosphere and mood into the reader without the reader need to see it explicitly written in words. This, I think, is the beauty of short stories. They are lines of hidden imagination.

Exploring more on the short stories, I searched the web for famous ones, the ones that won competitions or were published in prominent media. Reading theirs, I was stunned. Their choice of words and the delicate arrangement of words wow me. As a newbie in the world of short stories, I found Putu Wijaya's stories very thought-provoking. He is witty in his own way, and his story-lines made me imagine wonders.

Tickled by these new discoveries, I am so much inspired to start making my own versions too. So I spent the entire afternoon after my Tuesday exam and researched on how to make short stories. I need to admit, it is trickkkyyyyyyyyy.

Anyway, I didn't manage to construct one whole story, but the one below is my experiment on creating a specific mood and to create the entry of a short story.

Pelanduk

Hari itu hari Sabtu, pukul 9 malam. Bulan masih mati, langit masih rapuh. Bram terduduk melamun, sendirian. Gelas kopinya setengah kosong, bungkus rokoknya masih setengah penuh Pelayan kafe lalu lalang tidak menghiraukannya, menciptakan ruang kedap yang menyelubungi tubuh lunglainya yang membisu tanpa nyawa. Tawaran mereka untuk memesan gelas-gelas tambahan, mungkin, selubung usiran halus mereka, selalu dibalas dengan gelengan lemah. Sudah 4 jam waktu berlalu dan lelaki itu masih duduk membatu di bangku sudut, kosong.

Bram meraih telepon genggamnya dengan mata sayu dan mulai membuka kotak pesannya. Masih sama, tidak ada pesan baru. Ia menyusuri pesan-pesannya lagi, membaca satu persatu. Ingin dikoyaknya habis pesan-pesan itu, seandainya mereka nyata. Dalam kertas.

Beberapa kali tangannya terhenti, arah matanya bergerak ke arah yang sama, seakan-akan ingin menebalkan huruf-huruf kecil yang kini menari-nari di otaknya. Kata-kata mati itu membuatnya galau beberapa jam yang lalu. Membuatnya tiba-tiba bangkit dari tempat tidur kamar kosnya, memandang nanar ke sebuah foto yang tertempel manis di samping jendela, mendesah, menyambar dompet, dan berjalan menyusuri jalan setapak menuju kampusnya. Kegalauannya menariknya ke tempat duduk di mana ia duduk sekarang. Kakinya, dan hatinya, masih enggan untuk menjejak kampus.

“Mas, ada lagi yang mau dipesan?” tanya seorang pelayan memecah lamunannya. Bram terhenyak.

Get Tipsssyy for Tips

2010-11-23T17:51:00.000-08:00

Bored? Super Bored? Mega Board? Tera-peta-eksa bored?

Try these to kill it!!!

-apply face masks
-ask someone random beyond your circle of friends to watch movies of genres u dun usually watch
-find an easy recipe and cook it. Invite friends if u wish and have a small party
-Design and make some DIY accessories
-Go to your school's library and read fun colorful stuff there (design books containing only pictures and good design do the magic for me)
-Eat a lot of protein-containing food (I know its weird, but it always works for me. I heard it is boredom is a sign of biological needs too)
-Buy a magazine, read it in a super relaxed mode
-have a karaoke session in your own room, alone. Screaam
-Go somewhere random and start field-sketching
-Visit the beauty salon and have a full-body treatment
-Exercise
-Grab a drawing book, some charcoal, start studies on random stuff (like, say, your water dispenser?)
-Buy/borrow a new book that entertains and relaxes you, bring it to a cafe, read it there

Apa Kabar Kamu

2010-11-14T09:14:00.000-08:00

Ga kerasa udah hampir 5 bulan sejak kamu pindah ke Bali. 3 hari lagi sih. Ngeliat betapa cepetnya waktu berlalu, aku ngerasa bego setengah mati udah nyakitin kamu waktu itu. Yang bikin aku nyesek, aku ga punya kesempatan buat jelasin ke kamu kenapa aku tiba2 nyuekin kamu. Kalo aja kamu mau dengerin alesan aku. Tapi mungkin juga ada hal lain yang bikin kamu ga mau ngmg sama aku lagi. Di Bali gimana? Kamu suka ga disitu? Kalo aku baca twitternya, kayaknya kamu enjoy banget ya. Sering banget aku pengen sekedar say hi. Ato chit chat a bit. Tapi aku juga takut kamu ga akan bales.

Aku pengen lega dari rasa bersalah. Maafin aku ya.

7 Years.

2010-10-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

Pradita Septiwerdani, Ingrid Fransisca Gunawan, Anastasia Pauline Rinaldi Elin, Stella Setiawan, ga krasa udah 7 taun yah.Happy 7 years anniversary!Kita udah mencar2 dan makin dewasa.One day I wish we can meet up and share things, or probably celebrate birthdays in unusual ways lyk wad we, little girls, did 7 yrs back.Whatever they are,I pray that you all are walking nearer to the dreams we shared to each other in the past. Miss you girls a lot.Take care dears :')'

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1101325209&ref=search#!/pradita.septiwerdani/posts/163780870312661?notif_t=feed_comment_reply

nan chu long zhou sheng li

2010-10-13T10:49:00.000-07:00

My conversation with my ex-dragonboat teammate:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=788189687#!/permalink.php?story_fbid=133002170083883&id=1116104713&po=1

2010-10-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

i guess my reason to have a crazy schedule is just that I am too scared of being lonely.

2010-10-05T01:22:00.001-07:00

I love teaching and I simply can't get enough of it. I wish I have 36 hours a day and unlimited energy

Once a Nerd, Always a Nerd!

2010-10-01T20:02:00.000-07:00

Image taken from Edo's Blog

The Beauty of Letting Go

2010-10-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

I took a hard time accepting that I can't finish my degree in architecture. Sometimes the struggle comes in small packages, creating heart winces every time I see pictures, diagrams or anything that display intricate works of architectural beauty. It doesn't break me down though, but I should admit that episode comes and goes. However so, the degree of pain of losing something can always be eased up through one single, very effective way of coping called 'letting go'. Letting go is never easy. Mine might be minor considering I still have a chance to pursue a degree only that it is of different field of knowledge that is still within my scope of interest. But think about asking parents who lost their only child. Or a wife who lost her husband of 75 years of marriage. Loss is, more often than not (well, the object you lose needs to be something of great value to you, of course), not easy to handle.

But if we do need to let go, what other paradigms we need to embrace other than highlighting and embalming things we lost into a more solid image in our minds? We lost it and we don't want to let it slip away, didn't we? Not necessarily, though. Letting go doesn't mean erasing the good memories or telling the world that that particular thing you treasure, be it a lifetime opportunity, a childhood, a relationship, friends, spouse, or anything, never existed in the first place. It is not about forgetting it. Letting go means you accept things that weren't meant to be. In many points in life, we stumble upon facts that things do not go as we wish, even further from what we expected the least. We lose, we grieve, but we need to move on.However, it is absolutely normal to experience an occasional reminder that agonize us for a short while. Our brain circuit and our humanity work perfectly when it comes to remembering things we love the most. The point is, not to hold it too tight till we can't step further to the future.

Letting go is not a sign of failure. On the contrary, letting go is a sign that you are ready to move on and receive better things in life.

2010-10-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

Image taken from Edo's Tumblr

2010-10-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

2010-10-01T19:14:00.000-07:00

"Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains two descriptions: might have, and should have."

Louis E.Boone

Dream

2010-09-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to highlight one of the most beautiful facets of life: dream.

I was having a slight cold (plus some fever too. Well, technically now I'm still having it) and decided to watch an episode of Glee. So I ended up watching the nineteenth episode, titled Dream On, which I think is the sweetest episode in the first season. Why so? Coz I realize, that sometimes people simply forget their dreams when they think they are too small for big dreams, even if they too have the puny gut feelings that there are chances that they might be able to make them happen.

People said, dream realistically. Think about opportunities and resources. Think about your weaknesses and strengths, coz achieved dreams always start from a pretty good calculative preparation. But, really?

I might be one of those people that you call naive. I might not be the best optimist around. But there is one thing that I strongly, truly believe. Things happen, good things, because people dare to dream.

Obama became America's first black president because Martin Luther King Jr. dared to dream that racial equalities would not be impossible some day.

"I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal." I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood"

Martin Luther King. Jr

All biggest world changers started on the same ground: they dared to dream. They refused to think they are too small to reach big dreams that God has planted in their heart. They refused to see available resources, bleak situations, imperfect characters. They began with the end in mind. They could see it happening before every body else did.



So what's my dream? My dream is to establish a scholarship foundation for the poor. Reason being, I believe in education. I believe that nations change because of the people. And the change an only be started from a proper education for the younger generation. I can see it happening. Not that I think that my might will take me there, but I believe that when God planted big dreams in your heart, He doesn't wanna see you feeling to small too achieve it. God is specialized in creating miracles.

One single line to believe: if you can see it happening, it will

What's you dream?

Speech-less

2010-09-25T08:18:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I joined a speech competition in my university. It was my first speech competition (I consider debate as something entirely different because in debate you don't need to sound so well to get that 76 score) and despite the prize, I earned many good tips for public speaking. However, same old story, I spoke too fast and my gesture was too fiery such that it made the judges sort of said 'Whoa! Slow down' a lot (my imagination only though). So here are a few good tips that (yeeesss I know that I should've known these from debate but they simply didn't kick me hard enough T_T) I got from yesterday's competition:

1. The judges dun care about your advance words usage as much as your pace and dynamics.

2. Seriously, your goal is just to make them understand what you are saying.

3. Tone is HIGHLY important. You dun wanna sound like an old boring lecturer.

4. SLOW DOWN (arrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh again??!??!!!??)

Anyway, enough about the competition. I'm more interested in the process of building my speech.
Basically my major inspirations are Obama and Martin Luther King Jr.Why them? Cause they sort of represent the whole society that I was trying to defend in my speech. Marginalized society, people of no chance to learn, etc. My dream is to establish an organization that provides free education for unfortunate children. All my teaching experiences are dedicated for that particular goal in the future. Every time I think about how these children simply do not have anything (dun even think about education), my determination to attain that goal gets stronger.
So this is the speech:

The Last Freedom

Honorable judges, fellow Binusians, brothers and sisters.

I stand here in the name of a freedom. In the name of something that is indisputably desired by all mankind. Something that has liberated the human race throughout the ages from the aggression of inability to determine one’s own future. That something is knowledge. Knowledge is no longer a sacred word like in the past where intelligence was still elusive. We live in a different era where knowledge is essentially a reaffirmation of our profound humanity. Knowledge is now our identity. We delight in the fact that we are incessantly progressing in terms of capability to think. We are freed by education. However so, we should mourn over the fact that knowledge per se is still exclusive to the scholars. Without doubt, our nation is invisibly divided into castes that truly hinder us from moving forward towards an enlightened and more knowledgeable nation. We cannot see this from occurring even further. We need to stop this. We need to change this. I believe the change must be started, and the change must be started by us.

But why knowledge? Why should we place ourselves in such a burdensome responsibility to diffuse the knowledge to the unlucky ones?

The answer is absolute. I believe that the freedom to determine pathways to our own future is no longer decided by other nation’s pressure on us. We are way past the colonialism era. We are far ahead the nation’s development period. What the nation is being demanded now, is to catch the last freedom: The freedom to understand.

Unfortunately, the beast of illiteracy that devours the spirit to move forward still resides within many of our brothers and sisters across the nation. The legacy was foul, hideously foul, indeed. Nevertheless, we are able to break those chains. And I strongly believe that what we need is knowledge. To be spread, to be instilled, to enrich minds of our fellow brothers and sisters in Indonesia. The knowledge is the answer to free them from the bond of illiteracy and false understandings. The knowledge would give them freedom. Freedom to understand, freedom to comprehend life’s intricacy and most importantly, freedom to follow their dreams. Acquiring knowledge is no longer about us; it is about them who suffer under the strain of indifference. It is our burden to gather more knowledge and digest it further to be transferred to them.

And why here, in Binus University Library and Knowledge Centre?

Within stacks and racks are scribbles from all over the world, contemplative writings from famous philosophers, theories from business practitioners from as low as a middle-aged manager aspired to move other young entrepreneurs with their mid-day thoughts until as high as CEOs of reputed companies from all over the world, strong views from numerous political leaders intended to instill courage in youngsters of new nations, and many more passionate collection of thoughts. Their words are now no longer beyond our reach. The compilation of the most beautiful part of human advancements is right here in Binus University Library and Knowledge Centre. Within a few steps, we may find a bountiful agglomeration of accomplishments for us to read and share further to our less fortunate brothers and sisters. The joy is unspeakable and it is such a true bliss for those who are able to delve into the library’s richness.

The need to explore is already beyond selfish needs of individual bravado. The clock is ticking yet the amount of knowledge keeps growing. In no time, we will be left behind by the fast-paced cruelty of modernization. Every single one of us here is threatened by the same fear: The insufficiency of ourselves, underlined by the cry of the others who wish that we will take them with us towards the dim future. The pace is fast and we should definitely rush. The nation depends on those who believe in knowledge.

Another reason for us to dig more into the abundance of knowledge in Binus University Library and Knowledge Centre is the continuous progress of ourselves. All of us here are the spur of Binus University. We strive to attain excellence here. We live day by day pursuing our dreams and aspirations here. Our moves and actions are the driver of Binus University. Yet our attempt to chase those noble desires would be futile without the richness of knowledge. And the immediate paradise to advance our minds with world’s greatest brain works is Binus Library and Knowledge Centre.

The biggest enemy to curiosity is apathy. The above-mentioned progress of goodness might be put into a stationary condition once we think that building up our intelligent capacity is of no use. Our unwillingness to advance our paradigm will put a halt to our and other’s betterment. We do not desire such things to happen. We need to move forward.

Binus Library and Knowledge Centre is not a mere facility. It exists among us as an embodiment of the university’s attempt to demonstrate to us the importance and allure of knowledge, both for ourselves and for others who need it. It stands within the campus to embrace the longing of the individuals in Binus University to expand their viewpoints. And it is here to manifest the hopes and desires of the authors to share their knowledge to the world. To us. The library is here and our duty is to fully grasp its beauty.

We are not alone in this world. We might be the central parts of God’s puzzle in the whole picture of mankind. We might be the main colors in the whole array of colors. We might be walking on this earth collecting parts within ourselves to build up our own picture within the collage. But our responsibility is clear. We must find back the missing pieces to complete the picture God has intended us to be: the ones without the knowledge.

New Hair! Love XD

2010-09-23T17:14:00.001-07:00

What to Do When Mental Blocks or Drowsiness Kick In

2010-09-17T11:47:00.000-07:00

1. Change the environment immediately. The more drastic the change is, the better it will be.
Example: If previously you are in a closed space (like your own bedroom) you should move to a more open area like a outdoor cafe or your rooftop balcony.

2. Once you move to an entirely different environment, do these actions one after another while doing your work.
a. Take some sips of an energy booster drink (like Redbull/Kratingdaeng etc) OR a cup of mildly-caffeinated coffee. Do not take strong coffee as it will increase your heartbeat rapidly. What you need is a slight wake-up shot.
b.Munch some chocolate (can be any kind. White/Milk/Dark will do) but take it bit by bit in between the drink.
c. Take some sips of cold orange/other tangy juice.
d. Take some sips of water
e. Play some fast songs to boost your energy level. Avoid slow songs. They make you too relaxed and drowsy.

3. Present your ideas to yourself. Imagine you are explaining your ideas to some other people and are expecting a lively discussion with them to solve the core issues in your ideas. Speaking out will help you to box your ideas and generate a mental mind map such that you will be able to see a much better and clearer picture.

4. Browse through websites about design, especially the ones about product design/advertisements etc. Though your work might not be about designing something, seeing how people produce fresh ideas will help you to renew your creative thinking.

5. Just sleep. It works all the time XD.

Responsibility Bell.

2010-09-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

This one I took from my friend Adi Lim.
Splendidly wise :)

The true POINT of growing up is when we have NO ONE to blame, No ONE to run at, and there is only one choice: take responsibility.

Rawrrr.

2010-09-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

At the beginning of the holiday I was so flamed by the idea that I would be having plenty of time to isolate myself and do have some quality me-time (stoning for hours and feeling anything but guilt, watching low-budget movies and feeling so much like a renewed-headless-bimbo, things like that). Well, it did not go as I wished because in reality I had many things coming, and going on. I simply couldn't find a single day where I can have my ideal sort of holiday getaway (caution: MY sort. My ideal holiday getaway is no less than an uninterrupted doing-nothing period) until finally I managed to have my pristine long-wanted exile this week! Yay! I went back home to Bandung for a week and spent some time trying to draw animals. This is my first (err not really, actually. Its my third, after 2 other pathetic catsy-looking tigers) attempt in charcoal-ing that vicious little feline animal and *yes, yes I know, stop frowning upon the picture above* I am so going to try to practice more. I initially wanted to learn how to draw horses (horses are my biggest obsession I've yet to satisfy) but I went mad after the first attempt (they look hideously similar to celery sticks---never mind, so I still have a HUGE room for improvement XD ). Sadly, the holiday is going to be over in 4 days time and I still can't draw that beyond-beauty animal. Never mind then, I'll settle for something smaller---like ants? LOL XD

7 Things I Hate About You

2010-09-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

- I hate the fact that I like you.

- I hate the fact that I need to admit it.

- I hate that you always have this tendency to look down on those who like you, and I hate the fact that I hate it when you do that.

- I hate the fact that you can't be mine. And I hate it more because I even dare to sound like a downright softy saying this.

- I hate the fact that I always have this annoying urge to check on your presence. Everywhere. Fb, Ym, twitter. And YES it is annoying. Hence the hatred.

- I hate the fact that me liking you is destructing my way to normality. And I hate the fact that there is a probability that you do not know that I am struggling like hell to escape from it.

- And you know what? Sometimes I hate the fact that I hate liking you. But yes, the first point up there still dominates.

Corpus

2010-09-03T10:12:00.000-07:00

This physique of mine
Knows nothing but sin
The ripe, earth-ridden fruit
of gayness and greed
The eyes are still
Found nothing
But finger-pointing faces
Here, I touch you, inner
being. The one that knows
the Higher one.
Sigh, the weary me
Where is the edge of emotion?
My name, my foe.

Reunion with Self

2010-08-30T02:24:00.001-07:00

Attended a primary school reunion yesterday, had a lot of fun, then went back home. Question arisen: Do I prefer my newer version of mindset as opposed to the much more conventional sets of thinking? Sometimes freedom does not mean detaching self from the mainstream parameter of orthodoxy.

Steps to un-love someone in the wisest thinkable way

2010-08-29T21:42:00.000-07:00

1. Reduce it to the level of like

2. Reduce it further to the level of indifference

3. Increase it a bit to the level of friendship

4. Increase it further to the level of respect

5. Increase and top it up to the level of brotherhood/sisterhood.

Talents

2010-08-22T00:17:00.000-07:00

Talenta adalah modal titipan dari Tuhan. Banyaknya talenta yang dititipkan berbanding lurus dengan kewajiban untuk mengembangkannya menjadi berkat bagi orang lain.

Yossy Hanna

Do No Evil

2010-08-16T03:00:00.000-07:00

The secret to resist temptations : hold it a bit longer. It will fade. And once you've passed it, you'll feel a sense of victory of outpowering something you once thought is overpowering you.

Eye of the Beholder

2010-08-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

Carbon copied, the pieces of mind and desire
Into faces that urge for approval
Pretty and beyond beauty they said, but the void
Is only skin deep
It's shallow, it's sad. Pathetic.
But the Eves are just trapped
In printed comas
Their hands grapple for satisfaction
In thin air. Emptiness.
She cried. Again.

:|

2010-08-11T09:13:00.000-07:00

I dunno why I started this post. What I knew was that I had ambiguities, and felt that I just have to write something. That something, gosh, is so undefinable. I tried searching my brains for words, yet I have no clue of what I'm feeling or thinking at the moment. But if I may mention a word to describe the whole thing, I'll take : sad.

:(
Midnight randomness has never been this puzzling.

Celebrity Crush

2010-08-02T00:48:00.001-07:00

is reminiscing her geekish-pre-teen-kind of puppy love as she browses through web pages of a much-acclaimed Hollywood celebrity with the same old nostalgic jumpy heartbeats and adrenaline-rush-ish excitement. Who said when we grow older we can't fall in love with a celebrity? It's a simple, non-annoying bliss to inject enough endorphin into life's normality.

Confession of a Gazerholic

2010-07-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

So I have this confession to make.

I think about you every night. I check on everything that has you inside. Your facebook account, your twitter account, and I even gaze at your online status at yahoo messenger, stupidly doing it for the sake of knowing that you are there. I restrain myself from simply saying hi, knowing that I am actually in this insane fear of plunging myself once again into the same never ending dilemma. I am curious about your whereabouts, your feelings, your thoughts, though they are not reflected anywhere.You are a ghost. Emotionless. Thoughtless. Faceless. Yet you are there. Floating. Silent. Dim. Period.

I Just Need to Post This!!!!

2010-07-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

Okay dear people, I just found out about something. And that something, is going to change my entire life. But I can't tell you know. You will know by yourself, and I will explain to you thoroughly on 20th September 2010. 64 more days. And I'm gonna prove to you that my life will be indeed changed.

More Soulfood from FB

2010-07-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

This lump is from Gaby's fb info page. Thanks sweety! :D

Quotations"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried something new."
-Albert Einstein

"We must believe in luck. For how else can we explain the success of those we don't like?"
-Jean Cocteau
...
"Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?"
-Mrs. Maple in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

"Time will tell"
-a.n

"Ladies and gentlemen, that's politics!"
-Walter Wong (ADMU) on abolishing parties based on ethnicities, UADC 2010 Grand Finals

"You were great, but I'm better."
-Kartika Hananto, after she debated

"I hate all this uncertainty."
-Rex in Toy Story 3

"Trying is the first step towards failure."
-Homer Simpson

Another Favorite Quotes of FB Page

2010-07-16T07:08:00.001-07:00

This is getting more fun. I mean, I din really use to check people's facebook info page but recently I found out that some of them have truly interesting stuff. This particular chunk of quotations is taken from my friend in UI. Thanks Shanty! :D

Quotations"Winners never quit. Quitters never win"
(by : Fitness First, :))

"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."
(by : Bill Cosby)
...
"Pacaran itu sunk cost"
(by : Pamungkas Adiwibowo, originally by Miss Zuliani Dalimunthe)

"Kebanyakan dari kita ingin tampil luar biasa, padahal Tuhan menginginkan kita untuk sederhana"
(by : Ny. Farida Napitupulu)

"I'm not poor. I have you"
(by : Martin Johannes)

"Do not rely on second chance. Do your best at the first shot you got!"
(by : Mrs. Tengku Ezni Balqiah)

"Jangan takut untuk buang sampah Shan. Kata mama aku, kalo kita ga berani buang sesuatu yang ga berguna lagi, hidup kita akan penuh dengan sampah !"
(by : Ms. Jessica Hakim )

"Low Expectation is the key of Life Happiness !"
(by : Mr. Dimas Triwibowo)

"You are so much of a risk taker, honey"
(by : My Dad to me)

"Happiness makes you smile.. Sorrows keep you human.. Trials make you strong.. Failure keeps you humble.. Success keeps you glowing.. But Only God keeps you going..!"
(by : anonimous)

Unchained

2010-07-10T19:27:00.000-07:00

No pain no gain.

If I did not experience the pain, the gain won't worth as much.

And time does heal.

Daddy. I'm Sorry.

2010-07-10T17:48:00.000-07:00

I told him my biggest secret
And he told me four
He smiled at me and said
"That makes me love you more"

And then he made me laugh
And I knew it was a sign
That he was a man
That I wanted in my life
And with every passing day
I feel more and more of that way

Chorus
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He nerver hurts me
He heals me
He heals me

I can play him songs
All through the night
And he will listen to every line
And evern when I'm wrong
He is still kind
He chooses his words wisely when he tells me I'm not right
And yes he's a beautiful man
But he's also a beautiful friend

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He heals me

The moment that we met
He made me smile
He had so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea how long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime, forever or a year
But for the first time in my life I'm not worried about the future
Because we have such a wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out it's alright
Because he's already changed my life

He heals me
He knows the real me (he always accepts me)
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me
He never hurts me
He heals me
He heals me
He never hurts me
He heals me

He Heals Me-India Arie

Key and Locked Doors

2010-07-10T17:41:00.000-07:00

am
trying

open
myself

to
another

love.

7 (Random) Things About Me

2010-07-10T17:32:00.000-07:00

I always heart the idea of randomness. It feels like the sugar sprinkle on life's plain potato doughnut. Anyway, I saw this ummm...how do you call it? Anyway, I was reading a blog and the blogger got tagged in a (random) note. He didn't tag me or something (The blog belongs to dunno-who-it-is-in-the-internet-space) but I was eager to answer one. So, here it is! 7 random things about me.

1. I very seldom use boiling water to brew instant coffee (you know, coffee in sachets).

I always use a fork and normal drinking water. How do I do it? I pour the content of the sachet into a cup, then I pour a little bit of water into the cup while stirring it vigorously with a fork. Once the water and the coffee powder mixes well, I add some more water and stir it some more. Voila! Ready-to-drink Cold (Room-temperature, to be exact) coffee ! :D

2. I am a HUGE fan of dairy products.

Milk, cheese, yogurt, Yakult (Is there any general term for this? Fermented Milk??), you name it. I am so in love with all these dairy product thingy I can spend a huge chunk of my monthly expenses on these stuff.

3. I've never been able to finish a book in one go.

I have such a jumpy thoughts that I can't be patient enough to know what the book is trying to tell me. I have this impatience especially towards fiction novels. I prefer self-development and non-fiction books but still, the most I spend in one sitting is just an hour to read a few chapters, then I'll leave it for the next times. However, this doesn't deter me from buying books of course. In fact, I am a genuine lover of books, and I simply can't resist good self-help books (I always have them stacked in my shelves, promising myself to read them when I have the time).

4. I love my family. I really do.

Self-explanatory :D

5. I have a dream of building my own English-course empire.

All of my activities now are directly related to teaching and English-usage field. I teach English and other subjects with English as the medium language as well as making English education packages in many places (Student Activity Club, freelancing, College Assistant, tutoring) for the sake of one single goal : That I will be able to understand people's way of digesting knowledge. It is genuinely fun and yes, I enjoy the process to the fullest extent! :D

6. I am a pink freak.

Enough said lol. The thing is, pink colour is a visual feast to me, and it's never failed to cheer me up. Its just like a eye dope for me. You know, just like the way guys are addicted to porn ;p

7. I love rings.

Again, self explanatory. (Now it does look like I'm running out of things to said lol). Rings, in my opinion, are instant tools to make you look stylish (you know, just like how necklaces and scarves spice up your plain outfit). I don't have many, though, just about 20, but yes I am still hunting for quirky ones XD. Care to buy me some?

Facebook Inspired Me

2010-07-10T16:33:00.000-07:00

One good thing about facebook is that you can see what other people have in their minds as well as their characters .Statuses, posts and profile pictures and how often they update others say it all. Other than those things, the Info page is also another way to see what kind of person he/she is.

(Okay I am very sleepy suddenly and I am afraid that if I just let this post hang around the edge I'll have no mood to continue it tomorrow)

To cut the long story short, this friend of mine's Info page contains really inspiring personal as well as famous quotes and I'm just too tickled and too inspired to not to put them up here. Here they are:

Bio: A young vagabond who started dreaming early, fighting early, and learning early. A complex person who has travelled to the verge of the hopeful universe and back, whose faith was then renewed and dream rekindled. A man who seeks to affirm his inner strength, to reject mindless conformity, and to be self-reliant. And above all, a grateful soul who embraces the joy and hope of each new day.

Favorite Quotations:

1. "Ada perbedaan besar antara memperbaiki dan menyesali, tapi Anda seperti tidak melihatnya. Apa bedanya memperbaiki sesuatu di atas penyesalan, atau di atas perasaan sesal akan sesuatu yang bahkan belum terjadi? Tidak ada. Selama Anda masih terbayang-bayang oleh dua ketakutan itu, Anda tidak akan ke mana-mana.

Pembaharuan hadir dalam setiap detik. Perbaikan terjadi setiap saat, tapi ketakutan-ketakutan Anda tadilah yang justru menghancurkan.
Setiap saat Anda bisa terbang, asalkan Anda percaya akan pembaharuan yang hadir. Menikmati momentum yang datang. Tanpa ekspektasi apa-apa.

...Segalanya terjadi tak terduga-duga. Hanya ada satu yang pasti dalam hidup, yaitu ketidakpastian. Hanya satu yang patut Anda harapkan datang, yaitu yang tidak diharapkan. Berhenti memilah antara apa yang diinginkan dan tidak, lalu stagnasi hanya karena Anda berkeras atas sesuatu yang sebenarnya harus berubah. Berhenti juga menilai baik-buruk dari apa pun. Bukan untuk itu Anda hidup. Anda adalah pengamat dan penikmat. Bukan hakim."

- "Supernova: Ksatria, Puteri, dan Bintang Jatuh" (Keping 22 "Pelajaran Terbang" Hal. 203-204) oleh Dewi Lestari / Dee

2. "Onwards and upwards in life's earnest battle, joyously bearing the brunt of the fight. Nobly forgiving for all that may pain you, and bravely defending the cause of the right..."

- The School Rally (SJI)

3. "Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Every day can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise"

- "Angel in Disguise" (Song by Corinne May)

4. "For what is a man,
what has he got?
If not himself
then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows
I took the blows -
And did it my way!"

- "My Way" (Song by Frank Sinatra)

5. "The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes."

- Marcel Proust

Tips Anti Bete

2010-07-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

*masih males pake Inggris

Tadi siang gua berada dalam keadaan yang sangat mumed. Lucunya adalah, gua ga lagi stress ato lg ada pressure ato apa! (mungkin ini gejala workaholic, ga ada kerjaan malah bete)

Anyway, gua udah melakukan segala cara buat mengembalikan mood gua yang hilang dibawa angin. Udah guling2an di tempat tidur, udah berkali2 buka page facebook yang sama *yang ini bosennya ngalahin bosennya dengerin pidato ketua RT*, udah bolak balik baca blog orang yang gua udah refresh berkali2 tetep aja belom ada update post baru. *HYA EA LAAHHH.

Setelah beberapa saat (beberapa jam, sebenarnya) berada dalam kemonotonan akut, gua baru menyadari kalo gue sebenernya lagi...jrengjrengjrengjreng.... BOSEN!!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!! XD

Dan sebagai manusia yang dibekali dengan akal sehat, gua pun mencari cara buat menghilangkan kebosanan yang nyaris membuat gua jadi setengah gila itu. Dan setelah melakukan beberapa hal, bosen gue ilang cling! tanpa sisa. Karena saya menyadari bahwa pasti saya tidak seorang diri saja dalam menghadapin penyakit bosen, gua mau share beberapa kegiatan yang bisa menghilangkan kebosenan, ala gue tentunya hehehe :

1. Ke salon, minta di creambath, trus baca majalah yang ada di situ

Terbukti bisa bikin rileks, nyante sampe nyaris ketiduran, bisa baca sesuatu yang baru, dan tentunya bikin rambut wangi halus lembut hehehe

2. Ke perpus

Trust me, isinya perpus ternyata bukan cuman buku cetak yang bikin kita pengen nangis inget hasil ujian *seumpama baru putus sm pacar dan liat kado2 yang pernah dikasih dulu*. Cobain deh iseng ke perpus, trus lo susurin itu rak2 self development, novel sama majalah, terutama majalah yang lo kaga pernah ada niat beli di newsstand. Pasti ada deh 1 2 bacaan yang kecantol. Terutama self-development books. Pasti ada aja yang menarik.

3. Beli DVD komedi, kue marie, sama susu

DVD komedi udah jelas lah ya XD

Tapi kenapa kue mari sama susu? Karna gua doyan banget kue mari sama susu LOL. Oh! Kalo lo sangat sangat bosen, bisa juga makan kue mari ala gue, siapa tau aja lo jadi tambah ga bosen. Cara gue makan mari : satu biskuit mari dipatahin jadi berapa bagian, trus sambil dikunyah satu persatu, minum susu. Jadinya kaya...hmmm... well, bubur mari instant :D Dijamin ga bosen dan tulang kuat *!??!?*.

4. Download lagu Y.M.C.A trus nyanyi kaya orang setengah waras

Terbukti!! Lagu Y.M.C.A emang suntikan energi dalam bentuk audio. Dengerin lagu Y.M.C.A pagi siang sore malem ato tergantung kebutuhan, pasti bikin lo jadi pengen ikutan lomba gerak jalan pake lagu2 senam pagi yang maha jayus itu.

5. Baca novel

Terus terang aja gua sama sekali bukan penggemar novel fiksi. Kalo lagi baca novel, saking ga sabarnya gua sama ceritanya gua suka baca 3 bagian doang : Awal, tengah dan akhir. Tapi karna ini lagi masa liburan, gua mengijinkan otak gua yang loncat2 kemana2 buat sedikit direm dengan menyabarkan diri baca novel. Pilihan gue Raditya Dika punya buku2 sih. Sangat jayus dan kontemporer. *?!?!*

6. Do artworks

Gue percaya setiap orang punya sisi seniman. Bahkan sekolah kedokteran pun ada yang mewajibkan murid2nya buat ngambil art classes buat menajamkan sisi sensitif mereka. Naaah mumpung liburan bisa banget tuh lo explore sisi seniman lo. Bisa dengan gambar2 ato ngecat2 gajebo (semakin gajebo semakin ekspresif hehehe), bikin patung (trus sotoy2an bilang kalo hasil akhirnya adalah sebuah 'pernyataan'), ato bikin2 lagu ato puisi. Sesimpel apapun, pas lagi rileks, pasti ada aja yang direnungin *jia ilah bahasanya*. Hasil perenungan itu, kalo ga ditumpahin ke sesuatu, sayang banget, karena biasanya hasil perenungan itu mendewasakan kita *jiaaahhhh*

Semoga tips2 anti bete gua bermanfaat, walopun tipsnya nerdy banget semua (Harap maklum, gua emang nerd XD). Enjoy your holiday everyone! :) :) :)

Relationships Based On Choices

2010-07-10T10:57:00.000-07:00

*Lagi males pake Inggris gue hehehe

Barusan gua pasang status kaya gini di facebook :

"Dengan memberikan kebebasan untuk memilih, Tuhan memberikan penghargaan tertinggi pada manusia. Keputusan yang dibuat atas dasar pilihan adalah keputusan atas dasar cinta."

Maksud gue apa?

Begini.

Beberapa minggu terakhir ini, gua bergumul sama satu dosa. Saking stresnya gua sama dosa itu (karna lengket banget kaga mau lepas2) gua sampe doa gini sama Tuhan

'Tuhan, aku ko dikasih begini-begini sih. Kenapa nggak sekalian aja dari awal aku ga dikasi? Jadi kan ga repot gitu. Stres banget ini Tuhaaann.'

trus gua baru dapet jawabannya, well, barusan, setelah gua ngerti konsep relationship. Hmm gimana ngejelasinnya ya? Begini begini.

Manusia itu kan hobi banget ya bangun relationship. Relationship yang ideal di mata kita (ya kita manusia lah ya duhh) adalah relationship yang timbal balik, tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan, dan berdasarkan keinginan untuk saling mencintai dan menyayangi dari kedua belah pihak. Kalo ada satu pihak memaksa pihak lain untuk mencintai atau menyayangi pihak yang lain, either itu cinta yang otoriter, ato simply cinta yang bertepuk sebelah tangan (harap diingat ini bukan terbatas pada cinta antara pria wanita tp juga segala bentuk saling menyayangi, antara saudara, teman, orangtua anak, dll).

Kita juga nyadar dong, kalo bentuk cinta yang paling besar adalah ketika pihak yang mencintai itu bisa memutuskan untuk mencintai dan memilih untuk mencintai. Istilahnya, cinta itu keliatan makin gede dan berarti kalo dibuat berdasarkan pilihan (itu sebabnya kenapa film cinta2 tentang 2 sejoli dari 2 dunia yang berbeda yang terpaksa harus mengorbankan segalanya demi cinta itu keliatannya keren dan ujubilah romantis).

Pas gua nyadar konsep relationship dan cinta tersebut, gua langsung nyadar akan alasan sebenarnya Tuhan ngijinin temptation (ato istilah kerennya : pencobaan) dijatuhkan ke manusia. Awalnya gua pernah mikir kalo Tuhan agak2 jahat ya, karna ngijinin gua dapet tempation. Tapi setelah gua menyadari konsep cinta dan relationship itu, gua baru sadar kalo sebenernya Tuhan sayang banget sama gua dan pengen punya relationship yang indah sama gua makanya Tuhan ijinin itu. Maksudnya gimana?

Gini loh. Tuhan ciptain manusia kan bukan sekedar pengen bikin koleksi makhluk hidup kan. Tuhan ciptain manusia supaya bisa punya hubungan yang indah sama Dia. Nahh. Sesuai konsep relationship yang berdasarkan pilihan, Tuhan juga pengen punya relationship yang seindah itu dengan manusia. Sebenernya Tuhan sih bisa-bisa aja bikin kita otomatis jatuh cinta sama Dia. Tapi apa itu artinya kita bener2 cinta Tuhan? Engga kan. Yang ada justru Tuhan jadi creator dan kita robotnya. Tapi dengan adanya pencobaan, kita dikasi kesempatan untuk memilih. Mau pilih kesenengan dunia yang sementara dan semu apa kesenengan kekal sama Dia? Pada saat kita dicobain, kalo kita akhirnya memutuskan untuk memilih Dia di atas kesenengan2 itu, (despite kenyataan kalo kita padahal belum bisa melihat kesenengan kekal itu---kesenengan dunia kan jauh lebih kerasa dan instan) artinya cinta kita sama Tuhan lebih murni dan jauh lebih berharga. Tuhan jelas lebih memilih kita mencintai Dia dengan cara ini kan.

Makin gua mikir, makin gua nyadar betapa Tuhan menghargai kita sebagai manusia dengan ngasih kita kesempatan untuk milih dunia ato milih Dia. Betapapun sedihnya waktu manusia lebih sering memilih dunia daripada Dia, Dia ga pernah maksa. Padahal buat bikin kita cinta Dia itu segampang perkalian anak SD. Then again, Dia Allah yang bijak banget. Dia pengen hati nurani kita yang bikin kita balik dengan sukarela sama Dia. And I think it is really sweet :)

So, when I look back loh ko jadi Inggris tiba2, gua jadi lebih merasa kalo Tuhan itu sangat baik. Dan itu membuat gua jadi semakin rela untuk ninggalin kesenengan2 dunia yang sementara itu buat dapetin cintanya Dia yang lebih membuat gua bahagia. Strugglenya tetep ada, tapi kan ada kekuatan Dia untuk bantu gue. Yang penting, hati Yossy buat Tuhan deh :)

Room Tour

2010-07-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

This girl's room is just like a clothing----and drug--- store!!

It's still pretty interesting to watch though :D

Click here to view her video.

2010-07-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

I was so much inspired by the quotes on my friend's Info Page of her Facebook account. Here are some that I heart so much :

"You pay God a compliment by asking great things of Him." -St. Teresa of Avila.

"Believe and act as if it were impossible to fail" - Charles F. Kettering.

"No one enjoys their first time" -Blair Waldorf.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” -Mark Twain.

Arid

2010-07-08T07:10:00.000-07:00

The sundried tears glimmered in the scorching shine
And my feet took me to the pond
Sand is skin's perfect match
Burnt by
The bliss of brush and the underlying hot spell
Under the cloud canopy
I looked up
Seeing rain drops wetted my forehead
My thirst was quenched, my lips licked the taste of peace
Vehemence

My New Sketch Book

2010-07-02T08:40:00.000-07:00

Holiday is coming VERY soon and I can't wait to do things I've been dying to do!!!!!!!!!
I am super excited for the holiday as now I have the time to do my ever-forgotten hobby: sketching. I wanted to learn how to draw human figure so badly but din have the time for it. And now *wiping tears* the time has comeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY

I realized that human figure is such a complex object to be learned such that I created a separate blog to record my exploration in the human drawing field. I know my drawing skill is just so so but seriously people, if you like doing something and doing that particular something is your sole enjoyment til you can forget your surrounding, you won't care whether the lion you are drawing is more like a goat to other people hehehehhehehe.
Other than human figure, I will also learn how to drawww *drumrollllll* HORSEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'VE BEEN DYING TO BE ABLE TO DRAW HORSES EVER SINCE I KNEW I THERE IS SUCH THING CALLED HORSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *super excited XD

My friend from Visual Design and Communication lent me an amazing tutorial book on how to draw animals. And the moment I saw that book, I knew that that book, yes people yes, is my destiny XD
Other than that, I probably will do some field sketches using rotring as well hehehhe. Ahhh heaven :)

I can't wait I can't waittttttttttt!!!!
So, tomorrow I am going to buy this sketch book specially for this holiday project. So much looking forward to having a lot of new sketches at the end of the holiday, which is the end of September. Almost 3 months of sketching and drawing? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD

Oya! The new blog for my sketches is this :

www.bukusketsayossy.blogspot.com

Cekidot gan hehe

Apt-Ple

2010-06-28T18:38:00.000-07:00

Yes my life's a mess for the past few weeks but still, I can't resist the urge to indulge myself by eating...*drumroll* red apple!!! This apple is no ordinary apple, as I've already done a very meticulous research on deciding which apple around my boarding house is the best apple to be my source of fiber intake. (bear in mind that I am staying in a boarding house faraway from large supermarkets so the presence of fruit is pretty rare here).

Sooooo after several trial-and-error experiments by eating apples from several stores around here, I hereby announce the winner of this year's The Yummiest Apple award. And the winner is .....*DRUMROLLLLL*

RED APPLE FROM HUTAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! *APPLAUSE*

(Why red apple? Coz I only like red apple among all kinds of apple hehehehe)

Hutama's red apple is the juiciest, crunchiest (you've got to munch it while it is half frozen---it is HEAVENLY), and sweetest apple so far. Best way to enjoy it: Store it in the fridge and take it together with plain yogurt the next morning. Eating healthily has never been so yummmmeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh for your info, if u r staying around Binus Kemanggisan and wish to purchase it, the price is approximately Rp 3500,00 per piece (I'm not that sure as I've always bought in kilos).

I Refuse to be Another Human Statistics

2010-06-28T16:57:00.000-07:00

I always skipped this particular track in my iPod as it's not a song and I din wanna spend my time listening to a man talking when my sole purpose of listening to songs is, well, listen to the songs (Ultimate self confusion detected). Anyway, last night I took the time to listen to the entire track as I was pretty bored with my playlist and decided to listen to something fresh, like, that particular track. It turned out to be really, really impressive. It wasn't a worship song nor a grand gospel. It was just a plain black man making a statement. About who he is, what kind of person he wants to be, and how he is going to be that person he envisions himself to be. For me, it is the best personal statement ever. It inspires me to make a similar statement, but probably now is not the time. I think this kind of strong message blooms from a screaming heart (which, is not my state now. I was simply impressed and inspired, that's all). So this is what he said in that track:

I refuse to be another black statistic
A black man who can wine and dine in the sin of the world and still be considered a christian
I plan on being great
I care not to be less
I refuse to wear a barcode across my chest
I refuse to let a black tee or throwback jersey define me
I refuse to let my children witness divorce
Or make mature decisions in court
I refuse to grow up carrying the generational curse
I refuse to feel the need to curse in my verse
I hate being automatically looked at when someone asks can anyone rap
I wanna be a black man that can flip it from urban to corporate measures
A black man who doesn't gain knowledge from the world for his own pleasures
A black man who reps christ to the fullest with no regrets
My only regret is the stigma that many black statistics in the past have set
Like going to jail, bragging about bail, leaving our kids, cussing at church,
married and you still flirt, no father present at birth
Animosity within the ministers of our church
I refuse to let my people be viewed as temporary
I plan on planting a seed not for the moment but for one thats legendary
As for statistics
My father broke the mode
And i feel its my job for the next generation to continue in it
Because i refuse to be another black statistic

The Latest Mango Juice Ad

2010-06-28T16:38:00.000-07:00

Pink Feeta Feet

2010-06-28T16:23:00.000-07:00

I always like the idea of walking in pink shoes. Judging from my mood today that is so much about all things pink, I consider these as items in my newly updated to-buy list.

(This one above is just a Godsend. SIGH)

Hail Pink Lovers

2010-06-28T15:56:00.000-07:00

I was browsing the internet looking for information about pink cameras with good features and suddenly I came across this uber useful website that contains information about, yes people, PINK CAMERAS!!! *I was utterly amazed by the fact that actually there ARE people who make website about pink cameras lol*

Click below:
http://www.mypinkcamera.com/

I love you---whoever you are--- who created this website!!! Hail Pink lovers!!!!

OH! And after minutes of super enjoyable browsing, I fell in love with---exactly the same with my initial target actually---this Sony's one :

My Current Obsession

2010-06-28T15:39:00.000-07:00

Someone out there, buy me one pleaseeee

10 Things That I Always Wish to Do But Never Had the Gut or Time To Do

2010-06-28T14:52:00.000-07:00

1. Rock climbing (Ask those who know me well and they'll tell you that every time I felt that my adrenaline rush dose is too low---coz I'm an adrenaline rush junkie---, I'd say I wanna go for a rock climbing. Listen to this, people : ONE DAY I'LL DO IT!!!)
2. White Water Rafting
3. Snorkling
4. Bungee Jumping
5. Taekwondo
6. Triathlon (This one is an exception : I dun have time and guts to do it hahaha. It's just plain cool I wish I can do it lol).
7. Radio Host XD (ME WANT ME WANT ME WANTTTTTT!!! )
8. Talk show presenter XD (ME WANT ME WANT ME WANTTTTT!!! )
9. Piercing tounge (inspired by a friend of mine. I dun have the guts to have one----and will not have one actually----but seriously, piercing on tongue is the coolest piercing of all body parts. It screams rebellionnn. Its just so damn cool.)
10. Tatooing (I will also NEVER have one but I always think a huge dragon tattoo across the back is insanely cool---yakuza wannabe)

Internal Confusion (Literally and Illiterally)

2010-06-27T18:57:00.000-07:00

Right at this moment, I have an avalanche of tasks queuing to be done. Still, I have a strong urge to pour my heart feelings into this post (pardon the lebayness ;p).

For the past 2 weeks, I have this internal conflict that almost drives me mad and steer me away from a peaceful state. At the earlier phase, I had trouble in sleeping and I just din know what's wrong. I was just way too confused of my own state of mind to bother what was wrong with me.

Then it hit me. It was my own conscience. It is the one that kept telling me that I did something so wrong which really clashes my belief. Once, in the past, I had this kind of similar confusion. But it's never been this hard.

I was telling myself that to be different was okay. That indeed, those attributes that differ me from anyone else will actually make me 'me'. But the more I believe so, the more I believe it doesn't work that way. I had trouble in accepting the so-called self-believe.

My own conscience is too strongly-established that a temporary conclusion that is shaped by my own environment simply can't root itself in my constantly-questioning mind. I was not different. It is my mind that is shaped to believe that I was indeed different. This is the part where I got so confused whether my initial or my later belief is the correct and legible one.

The confusion continues as I met new people. As I see extravagantly different lives and mindsets, my mind was set into the thought that indeed, my own belief is something that is shaped by my initial environment. The more i realize that this kind of paradigm is shapable, thus surely it can be redone. Redoing it seems to be the best possible solution.

The fact is, redoing something, (or here, more appropriately, reprogram) is not an easy thing to do. Paradigms are so much transformable and adaptable they force the habits and brain wiring to fit into the new set of thinking. Just like eliminating a tree from the ground, you need to pull it until no more root left. Same here, the reprogramming of mindset will take more than just a pinch. It requires something grandiose to eliminate it entirely. I need a bigger, much bigger power.

My surrounding identified my changes as something alarming when indeed, they are not. Its just a phase of transition that involves a lot of pain, and I need solitude to plaster it. And the more people to interfere, the more I am losing focus. And the more I am losing focus, the more pain I am inflicting to the ones I love. Conclusion, this change is, like it or not or no matter how annoying to other the effects are, necessary. And everything necessary needs to be fulfilled. Time heals, but healing needs processes. And processes often includes a lot of pain.

*I am pretty sure that you who read this post will be downright confused. Its just that blogging is my only conduit to pour all the ambiguities in my haywired state of mind. Probably if I am pretty clear of what kind of feelings and the eventual conclusion of all these confusion that I am having, I'll blog with better wordings. For now, this is enough to keep me sane for a few moments.

2010-06-26T08:24:00.001-07:00

I am learning to recognize feelings as the way I am humanizing myself, not the way I am vulnerable to human brain and heart wiring. The thing about love is that, the stronger it is,
the more it is actually very much divertable to be modified into
siblingship.

Tick Tock

2010-06-17T11:48:00.000-07:00

I am going to miss someone.

Someone who is leaving tomorrow.

That someone is going somewhere else for a long period of time.

That someone is going to pursue a dream that is found nowhere here.

That someone is going to have a lot of fun.

And that someone, being in that kind of situation, makes me smile.

And I wish that that someone never forgets me too.

And I love that someone.

My Top 10 Favorite Movies

2010-06-09T03:27:00.000-07:00

1. Elephant (a movie about the Columbine Massacre. Highly artistic. Highly depressing.)
2. The Butterfly Effect (only the 1st movie, though.)
3. Girl, Interrupted.
4. Premonition
5. Prozac Nation
6. A Beautiful Mind
7. The rest 3 ummm okay I just realized I only have 6 favourite movies so far hahahhahaha. Will add if I find more!

ps : do you notice that all my favorite movies are about mental issues? It's such a complicated and intriguing topic.

2010-06-09T03:07:00.001-07:00

the thing about distraction is, once it doesn't distract u anymore, the thoughts tt u wanna get rid of will rebound in a more slapping way.

2010-05-29T12:04:00.001-07:00

maturity grows from pain, acceptance of circumstances and making difficult choices.

Make me Laugh Like Hell

2010-05-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

I always have this weird kind of respect for people who can make me laugh like hell. It's not that I'm a joke thirsty person such that I am so in need of somebody to make me laugh (in fact I do make people laugh and I get soooo satisfied if I do so successfully).

The thing is, up to this date, only a handful of people who can make me laugh until tears coming out and the sun rises from the west (okay that's too much). Yes it IS that hard to find that kind of person. What I'm talking here is not a person who threw 1 or 2 jokes once in a while but he/she must be a person who can make me CONSTANTLY laugh XD

My beloved brother is actually one of the honored ones, and visiting his sanctuary (read: his super mega messy bedroom) is always a therapeutic visit. Believe it or not, when I go home I do intently go to my brother just to hear him talking. He is insanely funny for god's sake! People said I'm funny, but buddy, you haven't heard him talking *wink*. The other person that can make me laugh constantly is my teammate in UADC 2010. His name is Christopher and he just know how to make smart jokes that I LOVE so much! (Seriously people, people who can make smart jokes are indeed smart people) So when Christo and I interact (smart jokes vs stupid jokes), the result is a full-blown mad version of Dumb and Dumber times seven (or Smart and Smarter? Whichever way you wanna put it). Another one is Raditya Dika. Self explanatoryyyyy. He's funny like hell and can make me laugh like hell (but I dunno him so I don't actually count him as a person).

Making people laugh is a sacred art, ma cherie. So, yes, I still search for another honored people to be put in my list of Joker of the Century LOL

The Ellen DeGeneres, Oprah and Tyra Wannabe

2010-05-28T18:56:00.000-07:00

So I have this secret (yearright. secret) wish to have my own talkshow. People said, go apply to television station, go for competitions and stuff like that. Nah, a camera, a tripod, a stupid background, a few blankheaded friends and a few stupid topics are more than enough for me to satisfy my celebrity urge XD. So I have this plan with 2 bestfriends of mine to make a youtube talkshow that is going to be posted regularly. The topics? Nonsense stuff, my dear friends, nonsense stuff!!!! XD

Super Random Alert

2010-05-28T18:37:00.000-07:00

Started out with hi, r u a foreigner or sth? Ended with oya bukunya udah ada, ntar gua kasi y. tell me when you are free.

My Top 10 Breakfast Favorites

2010-05-28T18:24:00.000-07:00

1. Coffee
2. Wholewheat toast with honey
3. Boiled sausages.
4. Pancake with butter and maple syrup
5. Plain milk
6. Peanut butter toast (I am CRAZILY in love with this such that back then when I was still in school I eat this almost everyday without getting bored).
7. Yellow rice
8. Chicken porridge
9. Cornflakes plus milk
10. Oatmeal plus milk plus banana/berries

2010-05-28T18:20:00.000-07:00

Quickthought:

Sometimes I wish things that don't go as planned will turn back to the time when everything seems so innocent.

2010-05-28T11:52:00.000-07:00

4 days ago : I don't know if I like it without you

now : it's okay. but it would be so much better if with you. nvm.

2010-05-28T11:48:00.000-07:00

You never let me love you.

My Top 10 Instrumentalists

2010-05-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

1. Klazz Brothers
2. Bond
3. Chopin
4. Dave Koz
5. Kenny G
6. Rachmaninoff
7. Ludovico Einaudi (SIGHHH >.<)
8. Lang Lang
9. Maxim
10. Diana Krall

My Top 10 Favorite Piano Pieces

2010-05-28T11:22:00.000-07:00

This includes the ones I don't know how to play as well HAHAHAHAH!!

1. Moonlight Sonata
2. Eccosaise (the one I love the most from my past piano classes)
3. Pathétique (after Beethoven's Pathétique Sonata, Op. 13)~II (fall in love after played in the Classic Meets Cuba album by Klazz Brothers)
4. Flight of The Bumblebee
5. Feux Follets
6. Guten Abend
7. The Entertainer ( I LOVE this one)
8. Winter Game
9. Canon in D
10. Prelude in C# Minor (this one gives a super depressing and tragic atmosphere, if you are in a depressed mode please don't listen to this one, you might commit suicide)

My Top 10 Ten Singers

2010-05-28T10:48:00.000-07:00

This is to say that I generally like the songs of these people.

1. Kirk Franklin
2. Pixie Lott
3. Pink
4. Katy Perry
5. Glee
6. La Roux
7. Christina Aquilera
8. RAN
9. Sari Simorangkir
10. The Ting Tings

My Top 10 Items I Can't Live Without

2010-05-28T10:39:00.000-07:00

1. My Organizer (without it I will be blank headed, seriously).
2. Lipbalm and lipgloss
3. Phone
4. Laptop
5. Magazines (Fashion Magazines, News Magazines, Movie Magazines, you name it).
6. Milk Packages
7. Strawberry Pocky (the milk and pocky consumption will halt only because of 3 reasons : out of supply and simply forget to resupply, I got too fat, no money LOL).
8. Coffee (I seriously cant's survive a single day without coffee---coffee addict alert)
9. Pocket Mirror
10. Golia Lemon or Mint

My Top 10 Favorite Songs (in descending order)

2010-05-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

1. L.O.V.E ---Nat King Cole
2. Smile (Glee cast version)
3. Tigerlily---La Roux
4. Cry Me Out---Pixie Lott
5. Hide Me-Krik Franklin
6. Imagine Me- Kirk Franklin
7.Y.M.C.A (AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH XD---never failed to cheer me up)
8. Video---India Arie
9. Nothing Compares---Pixie Lott
10. The Voice Within---Christina Aquilera

Above are the songs that I can listen to almost dunno-how-many-times but still don't get sick of it. Some of it really can bring me into tears in an instant (e.g. number 2 and 9) and some of it can make me feel peaceful in an instant (number 5,6 and 7), or happy (1,3,4,8,10).

My Top 10 Favorite Topics for Conversation

2010-05-28T10:19:00.000-07:00

1. Accessories, Clothes, Make Up. Basically Fashion and beauty stuff.
2. Personal Improvement and Self Acceptance
3. Love and Affection
4. Controversial topics (LGBT, radical acts, funny policies, etc)
5. Experiences+ memorable moments (I love to hear ppl talking abt their own memorable moments)
6. JOKES! Oh how I love jokes.
7. Design
8. Hanging Out Plans
9. Funny events
10. Funny celebrity, funny gossip, anything funny, basically. LOL

My Top Ten Favorite Drinks

2010-05-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

1. Plain Milk
2. Coffee
3. Strawberry Milk+Milkshake
4.Lemon Juice
5. Tea
6. White wine
7. Mixed drink
8. Avocado juice
9. Strawberry juice
10. Beer (tsk tsk tsk)

My Top 10 Favorite Activities

2010-05-28T10:01:00.000-07:00

1. Hanging out with family and friends. Well, basically people I love :)
2. Sketching, alone.
3. Going to the salon and get full body treatment
4. Shopping
5. Writing
6.Watching my favorite TV serials for hours non-stop.
7. Talking as a host in a fake talk show, talking as a debater, or, simply, talking.
8. Designing
9. Hanging around in bookstores for hours, alone.
10. Making art craft or handicraft, plus shopping for art supplies and hanging around in art or craft stores for hours, alone.

My Top 10 Favorite Food (in descending order)

2010-05-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

1. Strawberry Pocky
2. Pineapple
3. Strawberry Ice Cream
4. Oreo and strawberry Cheese Cake
5.Tomato (I'm serious. I can simply eat it with soy sauce and voila! That's my breakfast.)
6. White Chocolate
7. Kway teow
8. Apple Pie
9. Spaghetti
10. Pizza

I Looooveeee Rings

2010-05-28T07:38:00.000-07:00

iTunes most played for the past 2 months

2010-05-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

Tigerlily---Here We Go Again---Smile---Cry Me out---Hate That I Love You---6,8,12---The Voice Within---Make You Feel My Love---Take A Bow---SoWhat---What U Do---Each Tears---True Colors---I am Not My Hair---The Way The World Works---Without You---Jack---Nothing Compares.

2010-05-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

love is not love when you continue hurting and being hurt and try to be someone you are not to avoid hurting and being hurt

-Yossy Hanna-

2010-05-28T07:09:00.001-07:00

menemukan diri adalah proses yg disusun oleh keputusan2 kecil untuk menjadi diri sendiri

-Yossy Hanna-

NERDS ALERT

2010-05-26T20:41:00.000-07:00

Over for Good

2010-05-26T20:26:00.000-07:00

One circumstance that people find it so hard to overcome is a heartbreak. I, too, had one very recently and it took me one whole day to extract the good out of the sour stuff. It wasn't as bad as going to the extent of massive quarrels that ended up with the parties involved hating and hurting each other, but it was a generous conversation of realization that unmatched personalities simply don't make relationship works. So, I stared for half an hour at this blank page of new post, trying to write something but found it hard as I haven't figured out yet what is so good about it.

Then it hit me. The good thing is, coz it was so good! I mean, despite the constant mood clashes and small bites of bitterness (read : small), I had a really great time with that particular person. And it is just too good to waste it by saying that 'Oh, coz this thing happen and that thing was said then I can't remember the good ones anymore'. Come to think of it, it is more peaceful to think about the good parts.

Anyway, the thing I learned is that, changing my own personality for the sake of keeping a relationship simply doesn't, well, keep it at all. Coz the thing is, the parties involved are human beings, and human beings live by being themselves, which make them really unique and thus lovable. To put it simpler, what matters the most is how matching the personalities are. Coz lets say if I force myself to be someone I'm not, then everything goes smoothly, then the one enjoying the blooms of the relationship is that particular person with that particular personality that replaces mine. Weird I know, but I just realized that for me to fully enjoy the sweetness of a relationship then I need to be myself, and when it's not working out due to personality-related problem, rather than changing it, what is probably needed the most is a good talk and the decision to move on. The more I dwell in it, the more I'm changing into someone I'm not. At first, I thought I wasn't changing, in the sense that the changes are desirable and so 'me'. But after all, the changes slowly and steadily tickle the inner me that I'm forgetting some of my older self, the one that I am the most comfortable with.

What is so good about realizing this is that, that actually there's nothing wrong with me. Good talks made me realize that it is, after all, the personality clashes, and rather than further hurting each other, we simply need to part, and it is good for us cause it will simply corrupt more if hold longer. And we (maybe me) can be myself again. And being myself again is so, so relieving. The sadness snuggled in once in a while, but I understand that this is indeed the best.

So, for you, thank you for the good times!

Debate Video

2010-05-22T19:42:00.000-07:00

I've never seen any recording of me debating and this is actually the 1st time I realize why almost all adjudicators say I speak too fast (The craziest comment was 'You talked so fast for 7 minutes yet you were still overtime. So definitely there is a problem there.'). Logan, one of the CHIEF Adjudicators recorded our debate when adjudicating us for Round 3. Our opponent was TWEDS 1 and the motion was THW confiscate property of those who cooperated with oppressive regimes after the fall of the regime.

you can view other rounds he adjudicated by clicking this link : http://blip.tv/file/3646468
ps : he adjudicated the champion of UADC 2010 (Ateneo 2) for round 1

2010-05-22T18:35:00.001-07:00

2010-05-22T18:24:00.000-07:00

Assumption University

2010-05-22T15:58:00.000-07:00

I've been in the debating world for quite sometimes (lemme count...so it's around 8 months by now) and have been involved (be it debating or adjudicating) in 9 competitions. There were moments when I feel so sick of debating (seriously, it’s one after another!! Banci lomba banget ga sih gw) but there are more moments when I feel so good about being able to be part of this community. Anyway (hey wait, my first intention was just to upload photos. Now I do sound like I’m writing a very serious reflection about debating.), my last competition was in Thailand. It’s called United Asian Debating Championship which involved Asian universities and held from 13-18 May 2010. The host was Assumption University and it is THE MOST GORGEOUS UNIVERSITY EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously man, you should try walking along the pathways and you would be amazed by the attack of the architectural beauty. Speechlesssssss. So here are some pictures I took there :

2010-05-22T14:30:00.000-07:00

To love is to accept differences. To love conditionally is to stop loving when the act of loving is corrupting you too much. To love unconditionally is to still loving when the act of loving is corrupting you too much. To choose to love conditionally/unconditionally is to start being conscious about your own emotional need.

-Yossy Hanna-

2010-05-08T01:08:00.001-07:00

Tiba-tiba jadi kangen gambar :(

2010-05-08T00:50:00.001-07:00

In common : India Arie, Lea Michele, Jordin Sparks, America Ferrera, Kelly Osbourne.
They know that people can be shallow. And they are frequent users of ear plugs.

2010-05-08T00:49:00.001-07:00

"The more I see myself in a constant struggle, the more I feel that sometime in the future I'm gonna help people like me."

-Yossy H G-

Quick Look

2010-05-06T18:57:00.001-07:00

An old friend of mine suddenly contacted me via facebook and soon after, we chatted in the yahoo messenger. It all started with ‘hey how’re ya doing?’ and “fine! U?” and some further explanations why I’m back in Indo and stuff like that. Then came the question that I faced for a gazillion times (hih lebay) every time I’m in contact with an old friend.

“So are you happy now?”

Very good question.

Unlike in the past when I just make a super quick answer of ‘yup!’ simply to avoid further discussion about it (coz I had a tough time forgetting the painful parts) every time someone threw that question to me, this particular time I took a pretty long time to answer. The reason is that I seriously question myself whether I am indeed much happier right now.

But right after I got pretty sure about it, my answer was:

“Yeap. I’m so much happier here.”

So why do I think that way? Pretty simple. I am being the freest version of me here.

Where did I discover that I indeed have the talent in talking? Here. Where did I discover that I have a special attention towards a part of the society and so much relieved knowing that it is something natural? Here. Where did I discover my healing for my ever-going emotional rollercoaster? Here. Where did I discover that I do have a passion in teaching children till I can seriously for once forget about my problems while doing so? Here. Where did I realize that I can be any kind of person I want to be and be so proud of it and even had the guts to write it down in a blog? Here. And where did I started realizing that I do not need to please everybody to be happy? Again, here. Conclusion is, I discovered the best parts of me here.

I discovered too many things about myself that I just dun regret going back here. The intensity and the rigidity of Singapore system as well as my constant feeling of being lost about myself simply just hampered those discoveries. Some people (who, I assume, have too much time minding other people’s businesses) may argue that personal discoveries can happen anywhere, anytime, as long as I want to. Well, in my opinion, there are situations and conditions that simply do not support those discoveries and it is just too snappy a conclusion if you think that all kinds of situational platforms are the same (e.g. Singapore is the same with Jakarta, etc). Environment, system, people we meet and our emotional condition (coz seriously, I feel so much more relaxed here knowing that grades are no longer that essential to survive hahahaha!!!) are the main factors that make the difference. And simply put, it is all different here that I can grab my fullest personal freedom to be the person I wanna be after all these years.

So, the conclusion is: Some situation might not be seen like the best platform for you to develop. But what I learn is that, there is always a blessing in disguise. The new situation might extract things that have been left unknown for years, and you are just about to discover it. :) :) :)

Talk the Walk

2010-05-05T11:26:00.001-07:00

Talk to any of my closed ones, ask them what are my biggest weakness and my biggest strength, and they will answer you in one single sentence: the way I talk.

My ability to talk is a double-edged sword. Really, coz it has brought me where I am today but at the same time also brought loads of problems into my life.

The thing is, I can really talk mega fast and argue mega fast and even find topics instantly in seconds during conversation. I can be very persuasive, very entertaining, very enticing. But at the same time, I can also talk too much and tend to exaggerate things. Even say some hurtful things to my loved ones. And probably some people feel terribly annoyed by my speed, my domination in conversations, and my inability to reduce the level of amplification of the stories.

I had a lot people praising me for my ability to talk and the same amount of people criticizing the way I talk. Sometimes, I can get pretty frustrated with this talent. The thing is, I can’t control it. I’ve been doing some things based on some speaking experts’ advices (like breathe in and breathe out) and stuff like that, but again, more often than not, I fall into the same pit again.

It never hits me that I seriously need to control it. I mean, I might hurt a lot of people without me realizing, and it would hurt me too knowing that. I knew it might be annoying at some points but I din even think that it might go to the extent of hurting people. But I did, a lot of times, and very very recently as well. I even regret the last ones pretty greatly.

But then again, as I told my friends and my loved ones, I am learning. I learn, and am still learning. And I am so grateful to have friends, families and loved ones, who support me throughout my maturing process. It is a tough and continuous journey (not trying to sound like a lame encouragement card here) but if I look back, I think I should be entitled of my fair share of smile and satisfaction as I am so much better than myself in my past. As what I put up in my facebook info :

“Struggles and weaknesses may prevent people to like me or befriend me.
But the purpose of life is not to be liked by people. It's about a long training to make myself a better person. Things I experience and people I met sharpen me in a way that I can't do on my own. I am grateful for all, thru thick and thin, that until today I'm still in the process of getting better. I admit it's slow, but the process is what makes me human.”

I admit that there are people who might not like me due to my weaknesses. Or maybe my strength, I dunno. I used to grieve so much on how I am gonna be liked by people if I keep presenting what is not pleasant for them. But I kept forgetting that any instant process in order to present what’s good for people and not changing it from the inside slowly but permanently always demeans the essence of learning in the very first place.

One person that always pops up in my mind each time I'm thinking about self confidence issue is my classmate, Ijah, Her personality charms me so much from the very first beginning I knew her. She is loud, witty and jocular, and she values herself in a way such that other people respect her for what she says and thinks. She does not mourn over the fact that sometimes she can be very different from other people, even get mocked for what she voices out. Fortunately, she puts earplugs every time those naysayers open their mouths and she will move on without any insecurities attached. She indulges herself in her own uniqueness and delight herself in her carefree nature of expressing herself. For me, she truly deserve my salute.

Back to the topic, changing ourselves for the sake of image and temporary loves are pretty tiring attempts to mark our existence on this planet. If you relook inside you, you’ll find that you are missing something. And sometimes there are little talks inside you that are unheard for years. I am glad if you do not have it. But as I go along living, I met more and more people who have the same struggle as mine. And as they (or, suitably put, us) meet people who dislike them, they feel that they are the most miserable people living throughout the history.

For those being able to put up a strong heart and claim that it’s such a useless thing to do, congratulations. But if you are not among those lucky ones, the good news is that you are not alone. One thing to be remembered is that, those people who dislike you, no matter how unpleasant they are, are not your enemies. They are your sharpeners. And at the end of the day, the rougher you are being sharpened, the more you are able to see what’s so shiny inside you. And this applies to everyone. And as much as I try so hard to present the real me in front of everybody, I delight myself in loving people. That includes my friends, my families, and my loved ones. They are the simple joy of my life. Thank you so much for loving me the way I am. I love you people

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