Siklusnya selalu sama. Gue terlalu suka sama seseorang, trus ada alasan kenapa ga bisa bareng orang itu, patah hati, trus sengsara muram durja level ahirat, trus mulai delete sana sini, trus mulai fokus sama kegiatan lain, dan menemukan satu kalimat kenapa gue bisa let go orang itu, dan selalu bisa let go. Ya iyalah udah sampe 9 kali gimana ga jago gue lama2. Salah satu temen gue bernama tiwy bilang, kalo gue delete sana sini artinya gue ga let go. Hmm ga juga sih wy, mkgn cara let go orang beda2. ada yang ga usah delete sana sini bisa let go, ada yang bisa. Gue termasuk yang ga bisa tanpa delete sana sini. Kenapa? Ya karena gue masih pengen jadi temen. Orang2 yang gue suka biasanya sangat oke dijadikan teman karena biasanya mereka awalnya emang cuman temen jadi bener2 sayang banget kalo sampe ilang.

9 kali selama 3 taun lumayan bikin gue dapet satu konklusi: Those who mean a lot would really stay. Karena teknik ini diaplikasikan ke semua gebetan gagal gue, maka hasilnya kurang lebih menunjukkan mana yang beneran bisa jadi temen dan mana yang ngga, karena akibat dari teknik ini adalah semua rasa akan hilang sehabis2nya setelah teknik ini diaplikasikan. Dari 9 orang ini (ga tau deh yang terakhir apa mau temenan sama gue apa ya), semuanya bener2 jadi temen. Dan apa yang gue maksud temen ini bukan temen yang jadi temen dingin kalo ketemu nyapa dingin dll. Tapi temen yang *gilanya* bisa diajak ngobrol sampe seekstrim "Eh, kalo waktu itu kita jadian gimana ya?" ato "Eh waktu itu ko lo ngacangin gue sih?"

Gue akuin gue orang yang suangat lemah terhadap cinta. Tapi walopun gue lemah, syukurlah Tuhan masih baik sama gue yang bukan orang baik ini. Salah banyak masih dimaapin, mewek saban hari sampe lemes masih dibantuin, padahal kadang2 objek cinta gue agak2 ga sesuai sama rencana keluarga ato yah Tuhan sih maksudnya. Tapi Tuhan masih baek banget mau bantuin gue keluar dari setiap lingkaran yang gue nekat masukin. Oke gue akuin gue agak nekat. Banyak dari 9 cerita cinta gagal ini yang gue lumayan eksperimental dan akhirnya tralalalala guenya dong yang jatuh cinta abis trus mewek pada akhirnya ahahhahahah

Tapi yang gila yah. Saking seringnya, gue beneran sampe gape bener move on. Optionnya selalu : mau jadiin temen apa ga. Kalo ga mau, ga usah move on. Kalo mau, move on. Dan proses move on ini duilee beneran deh saking udah rutinitas gue sampe udah apal luar kepala abis ini bakal ngerasa apa abis itu apa. Saking pengennya gue temenan sama objek cinta gue. Soalnya mereka gokil sekaleeee sayang dong kalo dijadiin stranger apalagi musuh. Lumayan rugi sih.

So far semua objek cinta yang gue move on in juga sudah memiliki orang lain. Dan pada saat yang sama gue juga udah ga berasa *fiuh untunglah*
Yang jadi masalah:
Gue males sih jatuh cinta lagi. Kalo ga serius mending out deh. Both dari gue duluan ato siapa duluan yang naksir gue *cia ilah pede bener*  apalagi kalo temen pas awalnya
karenaaa yang bermasalah adalah bukannya gue males pacaran lg ato apa. adooo yang susah itu ngilangin sukanya itu loh. Temen udah oke oke eh cupid kurang kerjaan emang ato setan lewat bikin sayang as temennya berpindah haluan. Lumayan nyebelin, pid, cari kerjaan lain deh sana.

Emosi=lumayan nyebelin sebenernya karena bikin otak berfungsi hampir sepersepuluh dari fungsi otak maksimal. Luar biasa deh cinta itu apalagi yang ga dipikirin bener2 bakal merusak persahabatan. Ya ga ada yang rusak si so far. Hari ini gue move on yang kesembilan kalinya sodara2. Move on nya total hari ke 11. Kesannya memang tidak punya perasaan, tp trust me, ini skill yang dibangun bertahun2 dengan sakit sakit perih perih bahkan sampe bulanan yang awal2. Saking pengennya gue get over it dan yasudahlaaah temenan ajaaaa busettttt. Cuman karena gue blon nge add lagi orang yang kesembilan ini jadi efeknya gue blom terlalu tau apa bisa jadi temen lagi apa ga. Orangnya asik boyyy ngakak deh pokonya ngobrol sama orang ini. Gue bahkan bisa awal2 waktu blon ada rasa, masih jadi temen fresh from the oven, ngobrol ngalor ngidul berjam jam jam sampe pantat panas minta diusir. Nah kan sayang kan. Okeh next time gue ngepost sesuatu di blog ini mungkin karena gue ada projek moving on yang baru. Cao

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I think you are perfect in my eyes.
Your love is perfect
and i never deny it
regardless of the one you love
who bruised you with imperfect love
you stay and you stand
and only fools let you slip away
fools like me
if i can turn back time
and pick one moment to change
i'd return to early oktober
when I met someone else
who at the end bruised me
and blinded me to choose him instead of you
and fool is me
to let you go
i'm willing to pay it back
if you let me
coz i love you too much
i cant let you go

:')

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Groar.

On 11 March 2011, a nuclear power plant in Japan named Fukushima Daiichi experiences a series of ongoing equipment failures and releases of radioactive materials following the earthquake and tsunami recently happened in Japan.The reactor plant, the one which contains the highly radioactive particles, released the dangerous particles to the air after a hydrogen explosion.

The Fukushima disaster is seen as the second worst nuclear disaster after the Chernobyl tragedy. The reasons why many countries still use nuclear energy is because it is seen as the new hope to solve the fossil fuel depletion problem. Fossil fuel, the main fuel source we still rely on, is depleting in an alarming manner and countries believe that there is no other power source as promising as nuclear power.

However so, we believe that the risks it poses outweigh the benefits thus we will no longer use nuclear energy,as power nor as weapon. This would mean that the United Nation should not tolerate the mere presence of nuclear facility in member countries as well as gives strong warning towards nations that still possess this facilities as well as on the course of developing them, be it for power source as well as weapon.

We agree that the depletion of fuel source is important, but protecting the society at all cost is even more important. Finding the right subtitute might not be fast and become an extended struggle, however putting the society at such a tremendous risk is not a wise decision. Though other renewable power source are not very reliable at the moment, it is still better to spend more time and energy developing it rather than using nuclear power which is still not fully controllable and bears too many risks. Governments need to protect their society to the extent of eliminating possible immense dangers. No maatter how promising, if it bears a risk as extensive as annihilating a great deal of human lives as well as leaving behind non-removable side effects, the governments need to stop using the nuclear energy.

 Even though nuclear power is seen as the only potential subtitute for fossil fuel, the risk of explosion is always present and once the explosion occurs, the damages are fatally dangerous, irreversible and will last for decades.

There are three major effects of a nuclear explosion: searing heat, overpressure from the blast, and radiation. The intensity of the effects depends on the yield of the weapon and the distance from the blast.

The impacts of the radiation and explosion are fatally dangerous:

Nuclear plant explosion kills people in a number of ways:

a.     Instantly killing people in vicinity due to the gruesome fire to as far as  hundreds of kilometre from the occurence of explosion due to the saturation of radioactivity that gets into the human body. When the Chernobyl disaster occured, the whole Europe was affected.

b.     Radiation poisoning is damaging to organ and other tissues caused by excessive exposure to ionizing radiation. Radiation exposure can increase the probability of developing several diseases, mainly cancer, tumours, and genetic damage. It is greatly possible that a single meltdown in a nuclear plant will cause these damages to millions of people at once through transmission by air.

Moreover, radio active poison prevention is not possible. There is no current method available to adequately prevent exposure to radiation from being absorbed in the human body. Supplements such as kelp and potassium iodide do have a preventative effect on the thyroid, but they don’t prevent exposure to other body organs and tissues. They cannot prevent radioactive iodine from entering the body.

The radioactive waste poses the same health risk. It is costly and hard to degrade as well as difficult to be transported away. If it contaminates the water and soil, the whole food chain will be contaminated as well. Contamination causes people to consume contaminated food from the water and the earth. Long term consumption creates a build-up of radioactivity in the body which means in a long term basis having a nuclear power is dangerous to the people in the society.

They are also irreversible and long lasting:

Once a nuclear plant explodes, the resulting damages are reversible to society. Firstly, when the radioactive particles escape the reactor core and are in contact with the surrounding environment, they will stay in the soil ground, water and any physical presence within the plant’s proximity. Even years after the Chernobyl incident the surrounding environment is still detected with high contamination of radioactivity.

These fatally dangerous, irreversible and long-lasting massive destruction will always be the greatest risk when a single nuclear powerplant is built, leave alone many all over the world. Once exploded, the impacts kill and stay. This should not happen and the nuclear power’s existence needs to be erased.

This letter is for you.

Hey D
I haven't been talking to you for almost a year. I can still remember clearly the last conversation we had. It was in the evening, and I told you that time that I am going to stay by your side and would never looked the other ways like I used to be. You were glad that time, and I thought that everything was gonna be okay. Yet right the day after that conversation occurred, I knew this person who, I thought, was far more interesting than you. I once told you that I would be back after I know that person better. I even promised you that I wouldn't leave you too long.

Yet that person wasn't the first one. I knew another one, then one after another, then I was even in love with them, forgetting that once my heart in fact belonged to you. I was so into them, I talked to them much more than I do to you. You were only, well, silent. You didn't say anything most of the time. Initially I told you to wait a bit more. When I was too happy with them, I told you that you shouldn't make me feel guilty. That sad face you showed me gave me a lot of sleepless nights. I too was confused. Why would I do such thing? Weren't you supposed to be the most important part of me? I once told you I love you.

sepuluh!

The Devil of Procrastination

So this is what happened yesterday. I had a holiday task which I found sooo overwhelming. Not due to the complexity or hugeness of it, but due to the fact that I hate the module so badly. Initially I postponed doing it for an hour, then to 2 hours, then to a few hours until soon the postponement snowballed into, hold your breath, 3 days!!!!

Yesterday I felt so flustered I decided to go for a small walk and do some sketching (Talk about chronic procrastination). Despite the fact that none was actually done from the chunk of my super-fabulous holiday task, I managed to be a little bit productive by making one sketch. The image was taken from this pasar malam spot (Night market in English) near d'Loft (its an apartment for students nearby). It is a local event held at the end of every month and it is sort of a local enjoyment here coz not only you can pick up some real bargains like very very cheap daily necessities but  you can also find rides for children (I only spotted 2 though).

I admit the sketch is pretty much disorganized (please spare me some lenience will ya) but hey! It was produced out of the desperation of this poor soul yapping for a heavenly help (please please someone tell me that this isn't happening. There is no such thing as Report submission on the first day of the new college term *sniff*).

Maybe... I should go for a massage! *again?